May 25th, 1319 AE 

Well. So much for keeping up with this 'diary' thing. Three years have gone by and I haven't wrote a single thing since my last entry but I suppose I should try it again. Laelia and my aunt say it would be a good idea to write down my thoughts. So..here it goes. What's changed in the last three years..not a lot.

I'm still living with my father, though I don't know how much longer I can stand living here. Though at the same time, I dont know where I would go. My aunt and uncle have offered to let me stay with them, and I guess I should just take them up on their offer. I guess part of me hopes that things will get better, but I keep waiting and waiting. Waiting for my father to change, to notice me, something. Yet he doesn't. Claire is seven now, and the most spoiled child I have ever seen. He dotes on her all the time and always likes to point out how accomplished she is and how much of a good daughter she is. She likes to try to sneak into my room and steal my stuff or snoop around. SHE BETTER NOT BE READING THIS!

I recently had my 13th birthday. As usual, it was a quiet affair, though something odd did happen. After dinner when my step mom and Claire had gone to bed, my father came to my room. He sat down on my bed and gave me a hug. I just kind of sat there like an idiot, not sure what to do. Then he said something that caught me completely off guard. He said, "Briallen, I know it might seem like I don't care, but I do love you. And things will get better". I'm not sure how much I believe him, but..I'm willing to at least give him a chance. I think he just doesn't understand me or the way I am. I don't WANT to be a noble. I don't like it. I'm never going to be that girl that wears fancy clothes and faints at the sight of a seraph. I'd much rather be off practicing using a bow (SHH that's a secret. And Claire, you better not be reading this!) and having fun with boys in the woods.

Sigh. Well. I guess all I can do is try to hope that my father will hold his word. I'm giving it a year and then...I'll go stay with Laelia and her parents.

I guess that's it for now. I'll try to write in this thing more often..

-Bri