February 14th, 1316 AE 

Sigh. Where to even begin this entry. Mom has been gone for over a month now...everyone keeps saying that "I will be fine". I get lots of weird looks. My father has started making me take a lot of lessons, even with mom recently passing. I hate them so far. I try to get out of going to them by saying I don't feel well, but he usually doesn't buy it. He keeps acting like nothing happened and doesn't talk to me about mom.Other than saying "You'll be fine, Briallen". That's another thing! He always calls me Briallen even though he knows I dont like it and like to be called Bri. It's so stupid.

Today is also Valentines Day. My father made me and my stupid sister go to my aunt and uncles house for the night. At least my cousin's here. She's the same age as my sister, but she's not a brat. I like to play with her. Her name is Laelia. Her parents got me a stuffed quaggan toy for Valentines Day and some chocolates. I like my aunty and uncle a lot, they are nice people. My father didn't get me anything. But of course, Claire my little sister got a toy. And my step mother got a fancy necklace.

I feel like I don't belong in this family...my father is rich. He's noble and he owns this big company that does lots of trading and exporting. I feel like I'm just in the way and I'm a bother, and he doesn't do anything make me feel otherwise. Sometimes I wonder if he even loves me at all. Happy Valentines Day, Mom. I miss you...

-Bri